"Love is a many splendor-ed thing."

I feel like love is in the air right now. Not the time of year that is expected as winter is quickly on its way, but at least that's the case in my house right now.

One of my roommates has been as good as engaged for months now and is practically planning her wedding. One is taking her boo home for Thanksgiving and I expect he'll put a ring on it before the end of the year. Another is falling in love with the man of her dreams as we speak.

It's a very exciting time. Making speculations and plans is fun to do.

But I have to admit...as much as I don't want to and try not to feel this way, deep down inside I'm just a little bit...

jealous.

There. I said it.

I really am as happy as I can be for my friends. They deserve these guys almost as much as the guys deserve them. I love seeing them happy and giddy and excited about life. But I wish that I could be right there with them. Being in love and being able to be with that person is probably the greatest feeling in the whole entire world. Every person should have the opportunity to have that feeling.

I feel like love is all around me right now now. Taunting me. Teasing me. Testing me.

You see, there's this guy. And I'm in love with him. He's one of my very best friends in the world. He makes me happy. He makes me feel good about myself and want to be a better person. He supports me and cares about me and I feel the same way about him. When something happens, good or bad, he's the first person that I want to share it with. People say that you shouldn't be with someone you can live with, but someone that you can't live without. I'd be willing to say that he fits that bill. I can't imagine my life without him being a part of it.

But of course it's complicated because that's how my life works.

He's far away right now. We can only talk through letters and emails. He's serving the Lord and I'm trying my hardest not to be any kind of distraction for him right now as he does His work. Let me tell you, it's so hard being in love with someone and not being able to tell them exactly how you feel. But he doesn't come home for 18 more months. And in the mean time, I'm going to be leaving for 18 months to do exactly the same thing that he's doing. Hypothetically, the earliest that we could be in the same place again would be mid 2013, probably beginning 2014. That's so far away!

But I shouldn't be complaining too much. At least I have someone that I can feel that way about. One of the lessons that I've been trying to learn in life is this: with patience comes great things. So, I guess all I can do is just patiently love him from afar for now and see whatever come from it.

And in the meantime I'll just sob and bawl my eyes out while I watch movies like Up because their love story is so adorable and I want that more than anything in my life.