I had that realization quite a while ago, and not only am I ok with that, I'm glad.
I'm not going to lie. As a young and naive girl coming to BYU, I never even thought there was a possibility of graduating unmarried. I mean, that's why people go to BYU, to get married. Am I right, or am I right?
Ha. So not right.
Yeah, that was how it was for our parents' generation. That's why all of the adults in my ward who told me that I would just get snatched right up as soon as I got from school planted that idea in my head. But as I found out through experience, dating just isn't that easy anymore. Stupid screwed up society. It shouldn't be that hard. (For more on that topic, see one of my posts from this past summer.)
So in the past year I came to the realization that it really wasn't going to happen. But instead of crying, I embraced it, and as I embraced it I realized how much better it really is this way. In the past three and a half years I really have done so much learning and growing that I couldn't have done if I had been married. I needed to work through things on my own. And I just don't think that I would have been ready to be married yet if I hadn't had some of the experiences that I've had. Finally at age 21 I feel like I could possibly be ready to get married. Not just have the desire, but actually be ready.
But obviously the Lord doesn't think it's the time since He has made other plans for me.
Anyways, the point of this rambling is that while I am like every other Mormon girl and the greatest desire of my heart is really just to get married, I am perfectly ok with the fact that I'm not yet. I'm not worried. I'm not freaking out that I'm graduating unmarried. Life will go on and there will be opportunities after college.
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